January 2011
65 posts
Adult
Talking about how mature and world-savvy you are, doesn’t mean it’s true. It works in the same respect as calling someone stupid, doesn’t make you smart.
If people could quit bragging about all of the bad things going on in their lives, maybe the world would be that much more positive.
couldn’t agree more :)
Today
I…
Like this girl,
Found a tie tack without the tack part in my school’s parking lot,
On that note I despise school,
Really want a double breasted blazer,
Preferably something with a crest,
Need to get to the East Coast,
Need to get into an Ivy League school,
Shit I sound pretentious,
Fuck it I don’t care that’s what I want for my future,
God please let it happen.
*Cheers*
“Sprezzatura - Italian, “artful dishevelment”
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Since Everyone is Writing about Highschool
Listen, I’ve liked my highschool experience. I really have. I’ve met some amazing people. Learned some incredible things. Broadened my horizons. It’s been fantastic, but it’s just highschool. It’s just a stepping stone.
My entire life I’ve been preparing for college. Whether it was scoring “gifted” (not in the “special” way, the “way smarter than a 7 year old should be way”) on my tests in elementary school, or cello and honors classes in middle school or varsity basketball, honors courses, Model UN and a whole shit ton of other things, it’s all been about college.
I worked my ass off to get here and I’ve sacrificed a lot of potential fun along the way. From Saturday mornings for SAT prep to missing kickbacks for Model UN debates I’ve done nothing but try to juggle a social life and school and it’s pretty fucking difficult.
Now, it’s not like I dislike or am begrudging of the things I’ve done to get here. I love debate, I love sports, I’m legitimately interested in many fields of academics and I didn’t work or juggle as hard as some people I know, but regardless this has been my life for about 18 years.
I’ve grown so much over these last 3 1/2 years. I’m not the same person coming in as I will be going out and thank God. I was terrible, a fat awkward, poorly dressed mess of a human being with terrible taste. HTH and the people there have helped shape me for the better and I got the best opportunity here more than I could have anywhere else. But it was never the end-goal. Highschool was never going to be my “best time of my life”. No that saying is for failures who enjoyed being top dog at some po-dunk little town in the middle of no-where that didn’t do shit and now sit balding in a recliner with a beer belly and a wife beater thinking “what the fuck happened?”
I’ll tell you what happened, those people are unambitious wastes of flesh that capitalized on 4 brief years in the very beginning of their youth, squandered all their energy at one time and ended up with no plan. I have a plan. I’m going to change the fucking world, God-willing and I’m not going to let a single thing stop me.
I’ve put up with sooooo much shit. From my parents, from the teachers, from the administration and mostly from other students over these 3 1/2 years and I’m just done with it. I’m tired of the pseudo-philosophical horseshit everyone likes to tell me. I’ve made up my mind, I have a plan, I know what I must do and I’m currently working on those goals with the utmost diligence and expediency.
Just get this straight. If you have a vision of what I should do or how I should act from this time forward at into college, I want you to take that vision, that notion and shove it deep up your ass. I know what I want and I know where I need to be and i’ll reminisce about highschool and everything on the plane to Providence or Cornell or Philadelphia or Berkeley or wherever the hell it is. That’s when I’ll be sad that this is all over with. College is going to be the best 4-7 years (graduate school included) of my life and things are only going to get better and more meaningful from there.
To everyone who has a plan or at least a few destinations and for everyone that thinks the future can only get brighter after highschool…
*Cheers*
Brian Eno on Nothing →
“What would be really interesting for people to see is how beautiful things grow out of shit… Nobody ever believes [that it happens that way]. Everybody thinks that Beethoven had his string quartets completely in his head, that it somehow appeared there and formed in his head, and all he had to do was write them down… What would really be a lesson that everybody should learn is that… things come out of nothing. Things evolve out of nothing. The tiniest seed in the right situation turns into the most beautiful forest, and then, the most promising seed in the wrong situation turns into nothing…
I think this would be important for people to understand because it gives people confidence in their own lives to know that that’s how things work. If you walk around with the idea that there are some people who are gifted, that they have these wonderful things in their head, but you’re not one of them, you’re just sort of… a “normal” person. [But with this insight], you could have another kind of life. You could say, “Well, I know that things come from nothing very much and start from unpromising beginnings, and I’m an unpromising beginning — I could start something.”
— Brian Eno
2 Types of People
There are two types of people in this world. Not the Good and Bad, Right and Wrong, Haves and Have Not’s, Winners or Losers. Those are trivial things. No, the two types of people in this world are those who give a shit and those who don’t. Architects and Demolition Men if you will. One spends the bulk of their time dedicated to a vision. A sweeping change to shift paradigms and to lend feet to the march towards a brave new future. The other exists only to destroy. To shit over the work that so many saw fit to dedicate their lives to.
I will never complain about the world without an intent to fix the wrongs I see. I will never subscribe to the ideals of Nihilism and any other philosophy which prizes barraging the world with gloom and doom predictions and decrying the wondrous works of man. I will never stop even if someone can argue better than me why my work is pointless because the world is pointless, I’ll continue to charge ahead. I will work towards the future whether or not I garner your approval you high priests of Fatalism. It’s horseshit anyway because you’ll never accomplish much besides making the world as worse place. Me, on the other hand, I’ll never stop.
I’m Chris Haack, and I’m an Architect.
“I never want to be “in fashion” because that means I can get out of it” ~ Ralph Lauren”
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Sartorial List
- Tailoring velvet blazer to a slim fit (Monday)
- Tailoring annoyingly baggy slacks to a skinny fit (Monday)
- Fitting all the watches I got from Uncle Bobby
- Brightly colored dress socks
- Brightly colored tie to match dress socks
- Brown wingtips
- Brown belt
- Leather/Canvas Belt
- Navy sportscoat with gold buttons
- Slim fit khakis
- Tie clip
- Skinny fit slacks from H&M
- Nice unironic bowtie
- Harem Slacks
Right Now
Well it’s hard to explain.
I feel the DGAF sinking in as I look at my grades and think “Cool”. I’ve done enough at this point that basically I’m coming in with well above a 3.0 unless a major catastrophe happens. The way I figure it even if every single one of my remaining 11 schools rejects me (highly unlikely) I’ll still have the choice between a Big 10 school and A “Southern Ivy”.
Though I sound like a dick admitting it, I feel really over highschool at this point. Besides ensuring a smooth transition between here and college all I’m in it for is A) Talking and chilling with good friends and B) Enjoy the pomp and circumstance of graduation festivities (senior ring, varsity letter, ditch days, walking at graduation). Don’t get me wrong I love what HTH has done for me and I’m better of both mentally and academically for them, but this nazi bullshit control is far beyond me. I don’t give a fuck. I’m an adult, I’m a senior and I’m accepted (and will be accepted) into colleges that will make this school shine. All I ask is a little freedom in the form of off-campus lunch and a blind eye to the dicking around I like to do. Considering almost every other school in the tristate area accomplishes that I don’t think it’s such an impediment for the school.
I really like though this whole new Prep look I’ve got going for myself. Considering Donel and Torres seem to be of the same mindset and the amount of sweaters over polos I’ve seen I feel the beginnings of perhaps a classier look at the school. God knows we need it, we just need it to happen organically, otherwise it won’t happen at all.
I’ve had a few people (on Formspring that is) call me pretentious. I understand where that comes from especially reading back on this post itself I do seem a little arrogant, but I don’t really give a fuck. I worked my ass off to get my grades and extracurriculars to an Ivy League level and I find no shame in admitting that. My newfound love of loafers and cavalier attitude really don’t effect anyone but myself. I worked hard to get where I am and I never once intentionally made someone feel bad about themselves for not doing as well as me. I always strive to accept people on their own terms and if their goals aren’t aligned with mine well God bless them on their journey but, if someone is coming at me like I’m acting like Jay Gatsby well then they can fuck themselves. They’re wrong and either feeling guilty about not working to what they wanted for themselves and channeling it as this faux class warfare rage or they’re simply trolling. Either way that’s all I have to say on the subject.
For those who want these last 4 months to go as fast as possible
*Cheers*
